Unfortunately, saying thank you seems to be an after thought more and more. So at least once a month, I will take a few minutes to publicly appreciate someone that has had an impact on me.
This round: Connor
Since I’ve highlighted that I don’t really have a line between professional and personal, I decided that March will always really only be about my first son, Connor. He was born silently in 2004. He would have been 13 on the 17th.
Just like any mother, my emotions are endless and quite the roller coaster. A few weeks ago I took the Leadership Circle certification course, one of my insights at this training was that I had done so much raw and vulnerable work on myself over the past 10 years. When someone asked me why, I didn’t hesitate with my answer…
After I came relatively out of the fog of Connor’s immediate loss, I increasingly realized this “need” for finding a bigger purpose. That delivering projects wasn’t enough that I wanted to make a difference for people, I wanted to put people first at work too. So I started my journey of feedback and finding techniques to counter behaviors. I started to explore different mindsets and goals of what I had always believed to be true.
Fast forward all these years, as I looked at my profile…as I talked with other leaders in the room, your loss was my pivotal moment to become the leader that maybe I was always meant to be. Maybe I would have gotten there anyways but I realized I got there much faster, with more honesty and vulnerability because I can’t fix your loss…I can fix who I wanted to be at work.
Thank you Connor. I miss you every day.